my much deserved punishment

this has been another difficult day of training. as is obvious from this blog, yesterday was a really exciting day - Lesson 3 arrives, buying nail polish, painting my toes bright red, creating my blog entry, becoming so excited that i started reading Mistess Akasha's pussy worship stories, i was so close to the edge for so long that is a miracle that i was able to avoid cumming.

so when i woke up this morning i thought i had finally calmed down - until i got out of bed an looked at my bright red toenails! oh my gosh it all started again! after masturbating to the edge for the first time today, i had to quickly pull on on my panties and panty hose in order to get my excessively aroused clittie under at least some kind of control. i managed to survive the day, but not without saturating my panties with pre-cum.

this evening while sitting at my computer, after first mastrubating to the edge, the next thing i did was put a second coat of polish on my toenails. then i decided to listen to the Lesson 3 audio again (Miss Blue's slumber party idea sounds great!). but as i listened more closely to what the Mistress' were saying, it was obvious to me that i had leaked way more precum into my panties than they intended for me to release. i think Mistress Akasha's and Miss Blue's requirement here was for their sluts to keep their cum pent up inside them where it belongs and not to be leaking it all out all day long like a dripping faucet. after all, this is supposed to be about THEIR pleasure, not mine!

although i'm sorry to admit it, i decided that i had not met my Mistress' needs and deserved to be taken over her knee and spanked like the disobedient slut i am. since its difficult to lie over their knees in an audio training (sigh), i pulled an 18 inch wood ruler out of my desk drawer, and kneeling with my butt raised up in front of my desk chair, i accepted the punishment i deserved. i did quite a job on my butt, as is evident from the photos. it really hurt, and i have learned a lesson that i won't forget soon. in my future masturbation sessions i will be more careful and stroke more slowly when i'm approaching the edge, so i won't leak so much. my cum should stay inside me until my Mistress' decide they need either my precum or my full load of cum for some purpose that only they will determine. its not my decision to make, i belong to my Mistress.