Final

i really hate cumming that way. it actually crossed my mind that maybe i should remain in the "chastity" condition that the Mistress' required during the training. but listening to the audio and reading the "Corporate Slut" story was finally too much temptation, and i assumed the required position (sigh). i'll spare any readers of this blog the need to read the messy details of my release. there is certainly no doubt about my status as Miss Akasha's slave and whore after that though.

as i started masturbating this morning (its going to take awhile to break myself of the habit now) i began to think about what Miss Akasha said about 'chastity training' in last lesson. that would certainly be a major step toward showing commitment and slavery to your Mistress. this evening before i wrote this i was on the stockroom site, looking at cb3000 and cb6000 chastity devices. very exciting! not sure what the difference is but i think maybe the 3000 would be better for me because its a little smaller. but for a sissy like me i'm not sure it would work out. my little clittie normally stays deep in my panties where it doesn't show, and i'm not sure i could handle having a 'package' again. but in any event, it was fun to think about it!

Lesson 7

i visited Akashaweb as usual this evening to read the latest Corporate Slut installment as i finish my daily masturbation. i have to be real careful when i am reading those stories though! it usually takes 3 or 4 rest periods to get through them safely and not cum. with the practice i have had the last few weeks though, i'm getting better at knowing exactly when i have to get my hands off my clittie and think of something else. its difficult but it is very pleasing to know that you have obeyed your Mistress and not screwed up. needless to say the Corporate Slut installment did not disappoint, and soon my clittie was swollen again thinking about being tied up and blindfolded in my office waiting for Mistress Akasha to take me with her strap-on.

i wasn't expecting to see the last audio lesson, but it was there too. as i looked at the title i started to think, i was at once proud of myself for coming this far and being very close to graduating from the class. but at the same time i was worried - Mistress Akasha and Miss Blue have been guiding my actions and telling me what to do for over 2 weeks now. i'm sort of used to it and (gulp) i like it (blush). without a Mistress to guide him a submissive male is directionless, and apt to screw himself up somehow. when you get right down to it, i need to obey Mistress Akasha and i need her strap-on in my pussy (blush!)

after 2 weeks i know it is going to feel great to finally release (thank You Akasha for allowing me to cum). its going to be very degrading though once my passion ends and a load of cum is dripping from my lips. but maybe i'll be able to put up with it better this time, after all i have been practicing sucking cock and licking up precum forever it seems. this is just the next step - the graduation ceremony sort of... anyway, that's what i'll tell myself.

thank You Mistress Akasha and Miss Blue for a fun and instructive 2 weeks. it was great fun listening to both of You and your interaction with each other. your slaves are truly fortunate to have such knowledgeable, imaginative, fun, and beautiful Mistresses to guide their daily activities.

your sissy,

jamie

Lessons 5 and 6

these have been difficult lessons for me to do, mainly because i am a sissy and am frightened of putting huge, ugly things like Mistress Akasha and Miss Blue like into my pussy. i did try to at least stay where i was in the training though, continuing to masturbate 3 times a day, wear my sissy lingerie and suck on my dildo.



between listening to the the lessons, and reading Mistress Akasha's new 'corporate slut' stories, all i can think of is being seduced by the scent and taste of her pussy. after i was helpless, she ties me up, gags me, throws me into the trunk of her car and drives away. after a long ride, she pulls me from her trunk and then ravages me with her strip on dildo. please take me Mistress, i need it... oh my gosh, i am so wet...



i was blown away when i read the message on Akashaweb to any femdoms who might want to participate in an on line viewing of a tormented slut. can you imagine! being forced to humiliate yourself on line in front of an anonymous group of femdoms? what a horribly embarrassing, humiliating, and incredibly exciting experience! how can i have a range of feelings that is so much different? who can explain how a submissive slut's mind works... (sigh)...

Lesson 4

i just can't believe how much i like my crimson red toenails! when i get up in the morning or when i take off my shoes i just have to smile when i see them. if i didn't have to go the gym, i think i would just leave the polish on all the time. when i got home, i of course put on a fresh coat right away. i am so psyched up that i think i am going to spend some time in Miss Blue's shoe closet during this evening's masturbation session (tee hee).

Mistress Akasha and Miss Blue have required that i write 100 words on why i love to suck cock. i don't look forward to this because i don't think it sounds very feminine to write about such things. but of course nobody has asked for my opinion about this and i have to do what my teachers have assigned. so...

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the reason i love to suck cock is because it makes my Mistress hot. since i am a submissive sissy, i can't hope to please my Mistress with my little clittie, and using my mouth is the option she prefers. when Mistress puts on her harness and dildo all the strength flows from my legs and i fall to my knees. as i rheumatically work her dildo deep into my throat, i maintain a massaging rhythm on her pussy until she cums. the excitement of my position and Mistress' fragrance assures that my own panties are saturated as well.

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i am very sorry to say that i must go out of town for a few days and will not have access to the internet and my training blog. however, when i return later this week i will study extra hard and make up all my lessons. while i am out of town my toenails will remain crimson red, i will wear my panties and stockings every day, and i will continue to do my 3 times a day masturbation training. i will also take along a supply of maxi pads to help make sure i don't embarrass myself!

my much deserved punishment

this has been another difficult day of training. as is obvious from this blog, yesterday was a really exciting day - Lesson 3 arrives, buying nail polish, painting my toes bright red, creating my blog entry, becoming so excited that i started reading Mistess Akasha's pussy worship stories, i was so close to the edge for so long that is a miracle that i was able to avoid cumming.

so when i woke up this morning i thought i had finally calmed down - until i got out of bed an looked at my bright red toenails! oh my gosh it all started again! after masturbating to the edge for the first time today, i had to quickly pull on on my panties and panty hose in order to get my excessively aroused clittie under at least some kind of control. i managed to survive the day, but not without saturating my panties with pre-cum.

this evening while sitting at my computer, after first mastrubating to the edge, the next thing i did was put a second coat of polish on my toenails. then i decided to listen to the Lesson 3 audio again (Miss Blue's slumber party idea sounds great!). but as i listened more closely to what the Mistress' were saying, it was obvious to me that i had leaked way more precum into my panties than they intended for me to release. i think Mistress Akasha's and Miss Blue's requirement here was for their sluts to keep their cum pent up inside them where it belongs and not to be leaking it all out all day long like a dripping faucet. after all, this is supposed to be about THEIR pleasure, not mine!

although i'm sorry to admit it, i decided that i had not met my Mistress' needs and deserved to be taken over her knee and spanked like the disobedient slut i am. since its difficult to lie over their knees in an audio training (sigh), i pulled an 18 inch wood ruler out of my desk drawer, and kneeling with my butt raised up in front of my desk chair, i accepted the punishment i deserved. i did quite a job on my butt, as is evident from the photos. it really hurt, and i have learned a lesson that i won't forget soon. in my future masturbation sessions i will be more careful and stroke more slowly when i'm approaching the edge, so i won't leak so much. my cum should stay inside me until my Mistress' decide they need either my precum or my full load of cum for some purpose that only they will determine. its not my decision to make, i belong to my Mistress.

Lesson 3

although its hard for me to believe, my toenails are now painted bright crimson red. modern technology is wonderful, i used a 'quick drying' polish and it was dry in only a few minutes. as i stared at my pretty toes, i want to smile and touch them, but then another part of me wanted to cry. all the while i was painting them there were conflicting thoughts going through my head. on one hand the color was so bright, pretty, slick and sexy - i just wanted to layer on more and more! it was so enticing and exciting that it was even making my little clittie stiff (of course in my constantly aroused condition that isn't so hard to do - thank You Mistress) but on the other hand there was another voice that kept saying - don't do it, you are going to be 'trapped' by the red painted nails, there will be no escape, you will be confirming to yourself and to anyone who might see your feet that you are a total sissy - humiliated and used by women and laughed at by men. but i couldn't stop myself. and i know that Mistress Akasha and Mistress Blue knew that would be the result all along. the battle was within me, but they knew which side would win.





and now, i just can't wait to see how they look when my feet are in nylon stockings and toeless high heel shoes! with maybe a nice pretty nylon slip draped just above the knees over my pretty shaved legs. its making me so exited that i think i am going to have to read one of Miss Akasha's pussy worship stories! oh my gosh would i love my face between her thighs right now... time for my next masturbation session... (sigh)



tomorrow morning it will be time to shave. my legs, pussy, sissy hole, chest, everything. after all, now that my nails are crimson red, my ugly male hair looks terribly out of place. i suppose i'll have the same conflicting thoughts in my head as i do that, but even i know who is going to win (blush). between the excitement of listening to these exciting lesons and the endless masturbation with no release, it seems like i am becoming totally under the control of Mistress Akasha and Miss Blue. their whims and desires are becoming the most important things to me.

wednesday night in training

just listened to Lesson 3. sissy training - OK !

thanks Miss Blue for mentioning my name - that really made me blush but its fun to know you have impressed your Mistress! hope i can keep my reputation up (or down?) with the rest of this training!

its interesting that Miss Akasha prefers sluts she can humiliate, just by making them wear panties, bras, etc. i used to be that way, but Akasha was too good at turning me into my true femininized self. she only has herself to blame :) now i wear lingerie all the time - i can't stand male underwear. but i certainly am still embarrassed by my desire to dress up - i know its not a normal thing for a guy obviously, and it is a truly a frightening thing when Akasha requires me to expose myself to women i don't know. and i'm always concerned about how much the ladies at work have already figured out about me (blush) which i think is way too much! but its also very exciting too obviously. i think i would absolutely die if one of the ladies at work (my lovely assistant for instance!) decided to dominate me the way that Miss Akasha or Miss Blue is able to do. and the thing is, i KNOW i would HAVE to do whatever she asked of me. i would have no choice (blush). i've been trained by the best!

anyway, will write more when i have a chance to actually work on this lesson.

tuesday night in training

i finished Mistress Akasha's Corporate Slut story... just what i didn't need in my horny condition. i had to stop reading it at least 3 times to cool off before i finished it. i can just imagine Eisa and Akasha walking into my office at work, closing the door behind them and pulling the shades. as i stripped my clothes off at least i could be glad that they hadn't invited my secretary in as well (or maybe that's planned!).

imagine being milked by Eisa and Akasha, feeling no orgasm, just being drained for the pleasure of your Mistress'. come to think of it though, that isn't too far from where i am right now with my 3 times a day masturbation sessions. its very interesting though, the longer i do this the more proud of myself i become. i have been able to obey Mistress Akasha's orders and deny myself pleasure so that i can please her by submitting to her will. its so powerful, its nearly addicting...

i still feel bad about not being able to deliver my message to Mistress Akasha last night. i screwed up and i failed her because i wasn't clever enough to leave my message in the allotted time. i truly hope i can do better another time (sigh).

Lesson 2

another day of masturbation torture! this is really getting to me. it seems like my poor clittie is always stiff, all i have to do is reach into my panties and rub it a little and it starts throbbing and leaking. then i have to stop and pull up my tight panties so i'm not tempted any longer. at least i get a little taste of precum each time (tee hee).

i just finished Lesson 2, and as hard as it might be to believe, i have not cum since the Mistress' forbid that (i think Miss Blue frightened me). it has been difficult, but i guess my reward is that i didn't need to paddle my ass tonight!

i just finished calling Mistress Akasha as she required to report in on the results of nipple torture. after 2 wrong numbers (was i nervous???) i finally connected with her voice message. it took a moment to recover from hearing her on the phone, but then i began introducing myself. it seems like only a few seconds went by, but all of a sudden the message system said it was stoppping. and i hadn't even gotten to removing the clamps yet! oh well. sorry Akasha, i guess i was just too nervous to get everything in within the time you allowed. if You do this again, it might be a good idea to tell your slaves how long they have to 'make their case' (tee hee).

looking forward to reading the new corporate slut story!

sunday night training...

these preparations for classes are really starting to get to me. it seems like my clittie is always stiff and when its time for my daily 'sessions' it only takes a minute or two before i am on edge. i think i have checked email and Akashaweb 30 times today hoping for some instructions to focus me on Akasha's needs. when i get this excited i have an overpowering need to serve my Mistress and do whatever is necessary to please her (sigh).

i did have some fun amusing myself by visiting my favorite lingerie dealers on the internet. unfortunately not a lot seems to be on sale right now, but i did buy a couple of bras, panties and a pair of jeans. i just love the way girl cut jeans fit, not all baggie and loose, and nicely 'close' through the crotch to keep me in place. compared to girl jeans, wearing male cut jeans are like wearing a grocery bag! not much on sale. i did find some sports bras and shorts though. maybe i'll buy a set. it will be fun wearing them under my other clothes at the gym this winter and seeing if anybody notices (tee hee!)


if this entry rambles and makes no sense it is because the only thing i can think of is the upcoming school work and how hot incredibly hot i am for my teachers. no wonder Miss Blue required me to have a paddle...

jamie

saturday in training...

it was very thoughtful of Miss Akasha and Miss Blue to allow me to masturbate to the edge 3 times today. it certainly has captured my attention, because it seems like i am thinking of them all the time. i have even played Lesson 1 over several times, it seems like hearing my Mistress' voices helps to lock me into submission to their needs and their will.

i was really happy to hear that Miss Akasha was going to start writing 'Corporate Slut' stories again. they were always my favorite series. i followed a link to one that Miss Akasha highlighted, "Cuckold Training for my Corporate Slut". i read it during one of my required masturbation periods, and oh my gosh - i was almost gasping for breath! i had to stop reading it several times to allow myself to cool down some to that i would not cum. watching Miss Akasha dress up for a date (i was thinking that being forced to help her dress in her sexy lingerie for that date would have been even greater humiliation), then later being forced to watch as her stud satisfies her needs, and ultimately being ordered to clean up the pussy of my goddess using my sissy mouth and tongue.

i am so close to the edge again after remembering the story and writing about it - its pretty obvious that masturbating 3 times a day is having the effect Miss Akasha and Miss Blue wanted. but i remember Miss Blue's stern warning during the Lesson 1 audio, and i have been very careful to stop touching myself and start thinking of something else when my clittie starts to throb and leak.

i realized today that i needed a new package of kotex maxi pads. my leaking clittie was leaving some stains in the crotch of my panties. i've found that its a lot easier to just use a pad and change it when needed, rather than try to get stains out of pretty lingerie. it makes me feel very feminine and secure.

i have been looking over my requried 'school supplies', and i have the following:

- penis dildo - 7 inches long, 1-3/4 inches diameter, pink, with veins. it has a soft fleshy tip that feels nice on my glossed lips

- pussy plug - 3-1/2 inches long, 1-1/4 inches in diameter, black. embarrassingly small i know, but its all my pussy can handle. makes me feel nice and full when it is in me

- aneros - this is a specialty pussy plug that i bought because Miss Akasha recommended it. it is very effective for 'milking' a slut. if you use it carefully it can drain you of cum without the need to experience an orgasm, which your Mistress probably does not permit except on special occasions.

- nipple clamps - from the stockroom site.

- wood ruler - to be used as a paddle as needed.

- clothes pins - assortment

- binder clips - small, medium, and large

i hope that gets me through the training. i didn't buy some of the things the Mistress' recommended, they were just too frightening. i do keep looking back at that inflatable dildo, but i know my pussy could never accommodate that. it is so intriguing and intimidating though...

thank You so much Miss Akasha and Miss Blue for allowing me to participate in this training.

jamie

Lesson 1

it was really exciting (and i do mean exciting, tee hee!) hearing Akasha and Miss Blue again in the first lesson. Miss Blue was right about my hand being on my clittie while she was talking, but at least Akasha let that count as my first "to the edge" experience. sigh. this may be difficult, but the decision on whether or not i cum belongs to Akasha and Miss Blue. that's the way it should be, and i am not going to mess up.

chastity is important to me, from the standpoint that i believe my Mistress should be the only one to determine when or if i should cum. i don't think i am able to make a good decision about that, because i would probably be thinking of myself instead of my Mistress' pleasure, doing it too often, etc. i don't have a commercial chastity device though (like the CB series). they are exciting, but are very expensive (and i would be nervous wearing one when going through airport security, etc). my preference for a chastity device is a tight fitting panty girdle which keeps my little clittie very much under control until a Mistress decides to release it. plus it makes me feel very feminine and submissive, something that i really need.

the inflatable dildo that Akasha and Miss Blue want their sluts to buy is scary to me. i don't want to go anywhere near it. it would fit in my pussy when it is deflated, but i'm afraid it would split me it half if i ever pumped it up! and i get so excited during the training and chat sessions that i probably would lose control. i think i'll keep what i have rather than risk damage to my pussy!

hope i covered everything, this class is so intense already - even on the first day!

jamie